its been just over a month since you left us to find a better place. i didnt know you extrememly well. i know we werent too close. but since your tragic passing ive realised how quickly and suddenly things can go wrong. i feel like you moving on to a better place has touched so many souls, so many hearts that you have changed the way people see themselves. you were one beautiful girl, and i know you had your ups and downs, and i know i may not have been available to talk to you everytime you said hello, the fact that you said hello was just enough to brighten my day.

you always smiled. you always had a laugh with everyone.

i remember the day in art when you made a cast of your body. you wrapped masking tape around your body and when jess tried to cut it off she cut your singlet. you even laughed at the fact that your singlet was destroyed. how i miss that.

and everytime i walk into that art room i feel you around, just because the mould of your body is still hanging in the corner. you are amazing. and i know how proud you would be of everyone who has been able to pull through this.

i will miss you bree. the supermarket will never be the same.

i love you.

but honestly, i have wasted so much time on facebook, i just dont have time to blog :O i miss having somewhere to tell pointless stories of my life ha.

aw well.. i will find the time eventually.

just a quick top up of imfo on me at the moment:

-yes, me and my boy are still together, ploding along, slowly getting there.

-schoolies is booked!! frothhhh

-next year is coming too soon. i still dont know where i will be or go

-and alot of things have changed. ive lost a few people in the last 2 months. its been hard, but were getting through it together; me and my girls

ciao!

I see comments relating to her outfits being ridiculous, and they being the only reason why she is even noticed in the music industry. I see degrading about her rumoured transgender status, and i see comments stating that she cant sing! Like, hello?! If she couldnt sing she wouldnt just get famous because she walks around in her underwear.

“Oh look,” says the manager of Buena Vista Records, “Shes wearing her underwear and a tuxedo jacket, lets just throw her a record deal.”

I want to say, that although Lady GaGa does have some crazy, and alot of the time, over-the-top costumes, she also has a marvellous voice. She can sing. She holds notes well. I also want to clarify, that although I am a huge GaGa fan, i much prefer listening to her acoustic versions, as you can hear the rawness in her voice, and the actual way its supposed to be sang without the commonly over the top electronic sounds.

And honestly, whats wrong with her dressing differently? If i was famous, i would honestly probably be doing the same thing as her. She’s not blending in and being critisized for being ‘just another pop singer,’ shes actually making herself known. If she was just conservative and plain, for example, Stacie Orrico, (like, where the hell did she disappear to?) then she would not have made it this far. Its because she dresses differently and makes a statement that she has became so known and loved, because there are so many young artists trying to break through, that you NEED that little extra bit to become the girl that makes the world go ‘WOW!’

At least she isnt like all the other famous people who end up going off the rails and disappearing, only to remain in the spotlight for their horrible mistakes. Britney Spears, Lindsey Lohan, who else? I could go on for pages of the dispicable role models that we have in the spotlight, and all GaGa is doing by dressing differently, is encouraging young girls to be themselves, not to follow crowds, and to certainly not be who everyone wants you to be. Quite frankly, if i had children, i dont think i would have any problem with them looking up to GaGa, as her messages are not all negative, like said celebrities above.

And whats this CRAP i see about her being transgender?! Who the fuck cares! Quite simply, she is just another human being. Who cares if she MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE both sexual organs. Its a rumour, and in no way and i saying she has both a penis and a vagina, but i dont care if she has them both, one or the other, or none. She sings, she dances, she has a terrific voice, much better than all the wannabees flashing there shit across Youtube, thinking that they have authority to degrade someone who is always going to be more famous then them. Grow up, and earn some respect. Shes worked hard to get where she is, and you have no right to take that away from her. Be nice for a change. Sheeez..

She may have some very provactive ideas, but being in the music industry, i could imagine, would be exhausting. Give her some credit for making it fun for everyone else!

i wanna live like theres nothing to loose. wont you live it with me?

i have been trying so hard to make things work with everything at the moment. but its so hard to try when no one else makes an effort. im thinking, im probably going to have to learn to love the fall. because i keep getting raised up, just to be dropped again. at least i know i wont give up. but im not so sure about him.

so what would you call this blog? a romance blog? me telling everyone how sucky relationships? or me whinging? i guess i need somewhere to vent. this helps. alot.

6) How you can make my heart melt with your soft lips
7) The way you hold my hand so tight
8 ) The way you never let my hands go
8 ) How you always watch out for me
9) They way you make sure I have everything I need
10) How you always know what to say when I get mad at you

11) When you buy me things out of the blue
12) How you say the cutest things over and over and never gets old
13) The way you play with my hair when I’m falling asleep
14) The way you stare at me as if I am the most beautiful girl in the world
15) The times when you where determind for me not to be mad at you anymore

16) The way you look when I get all dressed up
17) The smile you give after I’m done kissing you
18) The way you act like a dork but make me laugh
19) The way your not embarrased to say or do anything in front of me
20) How you can just defend me and not be scared

21) They way you walk when you get sad
22) The look you make when you get jealous
23) When Im feeling the worst, you make me feel the happiest
24) The way you sing to be all cheesy
25) How you can just drive hours to see me for a day

26) How you always finish my sentences
27) How your the only one who thinks im NOT weird
28) How your the only one who gets my joke… and laughs
29) The way we play stupid games, but you play anyways
30) How I can never hate you

31) How you love me like no other
32) The way you touch me as if I might break
33) How you tell me long stories that have no meaning, but you know I’ll listen anyway
34) How you listen to me talk for hours
35) How you forgive me when I do wrong

36) How you hardly ever get mad at me
37) The way you look after I say I love you
38) How times it seems like we’re the only ones here
39) the way your not embarrased to call me sweet things in front of anyone
40) The way you call me every freakin minute

41) The way you always find a way to see me or talk to me
42) How you put ME before you friends
43) How you would do anything I say
44) The way you get my attention
45) The way I turn you on, without me doing anything

46) How you can just speak your mind
47) How your not afraid to tell me your feelings
48) How you can diss parties to just stay home with me all night
49) How we text all day long

50) How we both get along so well
51) The way you spend all your money on me
52) The way we’re so much alike
53) How you make me feel when I think I’m nothing

on a lighter note; me and linq. its official. i hope i dont screw this up.